These are sad times

Well for a couple weeks it has been very difficult for me to write. 2 weeks ago I went to the doctor for my baby check-up. The doctor told us the most devastating news, our baby had no heartbeat. To make a long story short, I have a fibroid tumor that caused my miscarriage. Apparently the fibroid is located in a spot that kept the baby from growing properly. Last Friday, I had to have a d&c since my body didn't miscarry on its own.
Words can't really explain the devastation in my heart. All my life I've wanted a little one to hold of my own. Now my world has been crushed.
I know one day I'll see my baby in heaven and all the "whys" will be answered. Obviously God had a reason for this, but it's hard now to understand why He picked me.
Deric and I will try again to have a family. Next month I have to have more tests on my fibroid to determine the exact location of it. So I will patiently wait and pray that the Lord will bless me with a little one soon. Not knowing His timing is the hardest part. Not knowing which direction to go is harder yet.
Note: The Lord keeps putting this verse in my mind, which doesn't really help heal, but does give me hope. "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to bless you and not to harm you." Jeremiah 29:11