Our growing Beanie Baby

Today we had an exciting ultra-sound. We went in, not sure what was going to be done. "Where we going to hear the heart-beat?" We weren't sure. Then the doctor announced we were going to have an ultra sound. My stomach just twisted. Immediately on the screen pops this baby with legs and toes!! I said, "Oh my gosh!" It was so crazy because less than a month ago it was hard to tell it was a baby. In the picture above, the doctor said the baby was covering it's mouth with one of it's hands. The baby's heart rate was 171bpm. Dr. Sawyer said it's an old wives' tail that it beating that fast means it's a girl. Who knows? Speaking of what our little Beanie Baby is... we find out Oct. 14th what we are having! 

It was a very exciting day. We didn't get to hear the little heart, but next month we will. It's only 4 inches tall, too small for the doppler. 

I'm still amazed that this tiny person is growing inside me. It's too surreal. The miracle and the power of God is so overwhelming. Only He can be in control, knowing every move, every bit of growth. It's so amazing.

Of course I still feel sick (actually while I'm typing this I'm feeling quite blah), but it's not everyday you get to see your baby covering it's mouth!! (Maybe it was yawning).

Deric and I are very excited!!!!!!!!

A recent post atlast!

For those of you who read my blog, I'm sorry for the month daily. It's been really crazy around the Miller household.
First we found out on July 4th that we are expecting! We waited until the doctor's apt to tell our friends. We are so excited and very thankful that God has kept our little beanie baby (that's our nickname until we find out if it's a girl/boy) safe thus far. I'm due March 12th and am well into not feeling well. My body is changing and I'm really emotional. Deric has been so patient and supportive. I'm thankful he hasn't held my crazy mood swings aganist me.
We also moved into our house at the end of July. I also turned the big 25. It's truly made me feel like an adult. We have a house and a baby on the way. The boxes are everywhere! Sometimes it's truly overwhelleming, especially when 6/7 days I don't feel well.

This next year of my life is going to be filled with so many changes. I pray that God continues to keep us and the baby safe, as well as provide for all of our family's needs.

Rain and Fireworks

Isn't rain crazy? Yesterday Deric and I were up in Prescott with my family. It was kind of warm and then all of a sudden the rain clouds came in! It was pouring for the rest of the day. Sadly, it was still raining at 7:30, so we decided to go back to Phoenix b/c they can't have fireworks with it pouring. So our firework display was viewed from far away with the city in the horizon. The best part was freezing in Prescott! I'm sure thankful for those little moments, even if we didn't get to enjoy the full Fourth of July experience. 

Day 28 of the wait

So after driving myself crazy on Monday and crying for 3o minutes... I'm still waiting!! Deric kindly reminded me that it doesn't mean I only have this month. We just keep swimming, swimming, until it happens. He is right, but it's hard when you want it so bad. I'm really hard on myself. Satan keeps filling my mind with guilt and jealousy. All these babies everywhere! I even read an article that says if you drink coffee, even decaf, it can lead to miscarriages. Now I'm thinking, "Oh great! It was the coffee!" I really need to keep myself busy that way my mind doesn't think these things. It's been the hardest 7 months of my life!

Moving on.. last month I was 29 days so I'm waiting until Friday or Saturday! I keep having weird dreams about all of this. Here's the latest: Last night I was in Target trying to find the pregnancy tests. I ran up and down every aisle searching. I was yelling and throwing up! 

It was truly a crazy dream that lasted a long time. 

Thanks for those of you who are praying for me. I need it! 

Butterflies and babies

So we got a house! Yeah! I'm very excited, but while waiting to hear about it I've been making myself sick! I've felt a little bit better since we found out that we got the house, but I'm still nervous about baby stuff.... I'm trying really hard to patiently wait for the Lord and not take a test until Friday. But I want to know!!! Should I ease my mind and just do it? Or try to find peace in the Lord until then?
Until I decide... I'll do anyother crossword to take my mind off it.

The status of our move

Karilee, here's my answer to your question..
Yes, we are moving. Well, we don't know where yet. Our lease is up at the end of July. We are planning on renting a house..long story why we can't buy now. We really need the space and if a little Miller comes, he/she needs a place to sleep!! (I guess our closet could do...)
So we are looking for a house to rent and get into by Aug 1st. So that's the scoop!

It's Friday... I'm bored..

So I've haven't written in awhile and I'm bored so I'm going to list all the things I've been doing:
1. changing dirty diapers
2. going to the chiropractor and getting x-rays, in hopes to get rid of my migraines.
3. finding out my spine is really messed up!
4. stressing on what to get my hubby for our anniversary
5. not wanting to go anywhere bc of the heat, but wanting to go somewhere bc I'm bored.
6. trying to make up 10 things for this list.
7. really dreading packing up our apt. (too much stuff!)
8. praying for a little baby everyday
9. remembering why I hate taking showers
10. watching continuous 24 w/ Deric

If you look at this list, it's pretty low-key. A lot of it is thinking... which is not always bad. I wish eating and thinking didn't always have to go together..
Oh! So if I needed a #11.. it would be: working out for a few minutes and getting tired of the heat!!