I did it!

I took the leap of faith.. I quit my job! I feel such a peace about my decision. I'm really excited about working still working with kids, but being able to bring my future kids with! I feel God is really opening this door for Deric and I. I will be making more than I did teaching, which is great! I will miss teaching and seeing the kids, but I know this is the best for our family.

This video is pretty cool :)

Check out my new layout!

I'm so proud of myself figuring this blog page thing out! Usually I need the assistance of Deric, but this time, I did it all by myself!

Does anyone understand?

So all of you out there who watch Lost, please help me. This show seriously has my wheels turning. I know Yale has started a new Harry Potter class. I think they should create a Lost class. There are so many unanswered questions, so many what ifs?
Apparently, there are 7 seasons... okay so what more can we find? I'm totally confused about Jin's death, the underwater plane, how the rest of the people on the Island die bc only 6 live..
This show is good.. any insights?

So I just realized how selfish I have become. I was so mad at God for taking away our little baby. But, the baby was His. He loved him/her first. He was gracious enough to allow me to be pregnant for 10 weeks. Our little baby is probably so excited and not even missing this place! Our baby is with Jesus!! Oh, how I get jealous.
One day we'll see him/her again.

It's been a long time since I posted. I've been crazy busy with school, etc. Deric and I got to enjoy a fun time to Disneyland in March. We also made a pit-stop in Big Bear to say a quick "hello" to our dear friends the Rices. 

Throughout these past couple months, one thing remains true- God is forever faithful. He is always here, always listening, and always loving. Even when I am complete opposite of these things, He is always consistent. 

27 days left in school! Yeah!!!

These are sad times

Well for a couple weeks it has been very difficult for me to write. 2 weeks ago I went to the doctor for my baby check-up. The doctor told us the most devastating news, our baby had no heartbeat. To make a long story short, I have a fibroid tumor that caused my miscarriage. Apparently the fibroid is located in a spot that kept the baby from growing properly. Last Friday, I had to have a d&c since my body didn't miscarry on its own.
Words can't really explain the devastation in my heart. All my life I've wanted a little one to hold of my own. Now my world has been crushed.
I know one day I'll see my baby in heaven and all the "whys" will be answered. Obviously God had a reason for this, but it's hard now to understand why He picked me.
Deric and I will try again to have a family. Next month I have to have more tests on my fibroid to determine the exact location of it. So I will patiently wait and pray that the Lord will bless me with a little one soon. Not knowing His timing is the hardest part. Not knowing which direction to go is harder yet.
Note: The Lord keeps putting this verse in my mind, which doesn't really help heal, but does give me hope. "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to bless you and not to harm you." Jeremiah 29:11