Here's a picture of the beautiful flowers my amazing husband got me! 

Today was a much better day then yesterday. I talked to my co-worker and even though we didn't see eye-to-eye, we are not on bad terms anymore. I really enjoyed teaching and seeing the kids today. A couple of them said they missed me. That made me feel a million times better! My Pa gave me this chapter in Pslam to read. Chapter 20:1-2 says,"May the Lord answer you in the day of trouble. May He send you help from the sanctuary." 

The Lord sent me comfort and peace. Chapter 20 concludes by saying in verse 8, "They have bowed down and fallen, But we have risen and stood upright." I can say, I'm still standing with the Lord right by my side. :)  

Betrayal

So as many of you know, this year has been extremely difficult for me. I've had a lot on  my plate with work. On Friday, my co-worker quit. Now this may not seem like that big of a deal, but I wasn't there on Friday. She didn't even tell me she was going to quit. She just did it. At our school, we work so closely together that if that was me who was quitting, I would have informed my partner before I told the principals. But, she didn't. In fact, she just wrote me an email for me to read on Sunday night. This morning I told her my feelings. I explained to her that how she went about communicating to me she quit really hurt. She could have called Thursday night. She was so rude and just said, "ok." Luckally our principals were understanding. They let me go home. She said I was selfish. I was only thinking of myself. All I was trying to do was tell her my feelings. I understand she needed to quit for her family. I would do the same. But, to respond to me, her friend like that, really hurt. It took a lot for me to tell her how I felt. Quitting affects everyone, not just yourself. I've never felt betrayal until now. In mind I keep hearing, "I will never leave you nor forsake you." I know God is right here, in control. He sees the bigger picture. He has a plan for my classroom. I'm also reminded of the verses Pslam 118:8-9 that tells us that it is not wise to put your trust in men. It is better to put your trust in God, He is our refuge. God will never disappoint us. Even though this school year has been a mix of difficult parents, students, and long hours, I know I have forgotten to trust God in these areas. I have trusted that my partner would be with me and help me through the hard moments together. That is what a partner is, right? However, men will let you down. I have been let down. How great is God that He will always stand by my side. He is who I need to fully trust through the hard times. I can't rely on humans. 

I wish I could change how things were handled. I don't know why she chose not to tell me. Was she afraid? Did she think I wouldn't be upset? I need to respond in a loving matter. Even if she never tells me she was wrong, I need to try to accept that is how she is. I pray that our classroom will be blessed with a new teacher. Maybe my old partner will return!! 

I leave this blog with lyrics based upon verses in Romans 11:33-36. "God is God and I am not. I can only see a part, of the picture He's painting. God is God and I am man. I'll never understand it all, for only God is God." 

Off to Disneyland!

Today is a grand day! I took the day off to go to Disneyland with my friends. I'm very excited! But the main reason I was writing today, is because I truly have the BEST HUSBAND EVER! Yesterday he sent me flowers. The card said, "For no reason." Then I came home and he vacuumed! Cleaning means so much to me! Now don't get me wrong, Deric is the best all the time. This year we have learned how truly different we are. I still don't understand his thinking the majority of the time. I think he feels the same about me. But Deric is always wonderful. He wants to make me happy. I'm truly thankful that someone cares so much for me. Now I am working on showing Deric how much he really means to me. He doesn't have to send me flowers or clean for me to know he loves me. But, its just an added touch. :) 

So this week has been better than last week. We had conferences last week. It sure made for a very very long week. To top it off, I was home on Thursday with another horrible migraine. We have this kid in our class that is in need of help. It makes teaching very frustrating when he doesn't do his work and his parents dislike me. There is a plus to this week, I'm going to Disneyland Friday! It will be great to get away with the girls and do something not in Arizona. Now for everyone who knows me, I'd much rather go to Big Bear, but Disneyland is just as good. (Not better though). My principals asked me today if I was pregnant? I laughed b/c I was 1 week late until today. I really thought I was! I told them, "no, do I look fat?" Luckily they said I don't. But I guess all the in-style dresses I'm wearing make everything think that. There was a rumor they said, going around. So to clear the waters, no I'm not pregnant. I'm sad, but that just means Deric and I get more precious moments together. 

Speaking of Deric, if you ever meet him, he is hilarious! I can't believe how funny he is! I am so thankful I have a husband of such whit. Our kids are going to be always on the ground laughing! I know I am! He also is the most content person I know. I've never seen him angry. He never raises his voice. He is happy with life and knows that God is in control. It gives me strength because I am never content. It's comforting to know that I can lean on someone as strong as Deric. I'd be a mess without him. Well, I hope everyone has a blissful weekend! I know I will-time with Mickey! (No, not a pet name for Deric- his pet name is Piggle). 

Trying this blog thing

So Deric, my husband, has had a blog for some time now. Now seeing some other people's I figured I give this a try. Maybe it will get me back into the groove of journaling. So check back often to see what I've posted. Good luck to me!